GottaLovet

I was trying to get a decent night’s sleep since I had a long and stressful week. At around 3:30 am, my sleep was interrupted by a group of drunk meat heads. These guys were in the driveway of my apartment complex and all I heard them say was, ” Let’s fight, let’s fight man!” “I want to wrestle!” So they were wrestling and I guess one of them was so drunk that he hit the other guy in the face so the one who got hit was upset.

I forgot to mention, they are all friends. They all knew each other and I’m sure this is probably their weekly ritual, because one of the friends (who was not fighting) was talking to someone on the phone and he was like, “Yo dude! You got to hear this, there fighting.” And no one stopped the fight.

The police were called and asked the guys to leave and I guess the really drunk guy knew one of the police officers so they gave each other a pound, but the much older cop asked them to leave. He was the only one who took his job seriously. So the guys went their seperate ways. But as soon as the police left they came back to the wrestling ring (aka driveway of my apartment complex) and were talking. One of the guys, who was fighting and became upset bc the drunk hit him in his face, was looking for his earring. Then a Mercedes pulled up. Some meathead came out of the car and was like, “Yo, either both of you fight or I’m going to fight one of you.” This guy was pushing 30 and he was drunk as hell and looking for a fight.

He figured since he had muscles he was Zeus and he can request a fight for his amusement. While the guy was still looking for his earring, Zeus was still looking for a fight. No one entertained the thought. Until all of a sudden, the two guys who fought before started arguing again for no apparent reason. Hee hee hee!!! And the same cops came again. This time the veteran cop couldnt take it anymore. I thought he was going to arrest them but he gave them another chance. This time the drunks went home for good.

It’s going to be funny going to the gym later today. One of the guys lives in my building and he and Zeus work at the gym I go to :-(. It would be funny if I go to the gym later today and be like, “Yo, you two either fight or I’m going to fight one of you. Whats it goin to be?” LOL

Damn! I wish I took pictures. The thought came to me but I was half asleep at the time and I didnt want to be noticed. Damn!

I am tired of the foolishness that’s happening in both my professional and personal life. My boss is getting on my nerves. Why? I dont know. I do my job and I exceed my goals and I come to work everyday, before time, and she (who is a year younger than me) is taking her job too seriously. She was basically threatening me to work overtime. When did O.T. become required? I never heard of that. She then was telling me her bullshit for working O.T.  and I literally walked away.

I am not going to lose my job for someone who wants to look good for the “big boss”. She needs to focus her energy on someone else (and believe me there are a lot of people) who dont come to work on time, who havent even reached their minimum goal and/or repetively call out from work. Why am I being picked on? Is it because I look shy? Please, if they only knew.

In regards to my personal life, I am tired of being sidelined. There were a lot of things I wanted to do with my ex-mate, like going to Washington D.C and Atlantic City, but plans would be pushed back bc his mom was traveling and among other things. I dont like, nor want,  to rearrange my life for other people, especially for people who dont like me in the first place.

I have a laundry list of things I didnt like when I was in the relationship. But I learned to live with it. Dont get me wrong, I’m not a saint and I dont claim to be either. However, if I scratch your back, you have to scratch mine. I dont waste time. But I wasted time. Its a shame. But I guess after I nagged a little about something, that’s when my ex-mate would apologize and then we get back together. He was very comfortable with the relationship. As was I. I was getting used to the treatment I was getting. Due to recent events, I kind of woke up and decided I wasnt going to take it anymore.

At this time I prefer to be alone and not deal with anyone. I dont want to get flowers, other gifts or a proposal, bc its just out of pity. I want time for myself and I want my ex-mate to take time for himself to think about what he wants. I dont want to rush back into a relationship right now. I have enough stress already.

If its meant for me to get back with him then I will but I wont right now. I am not planning on seeing, or even talking to him, for no less than 3-6 months. I think that is enough time for us to think about what we want…in life.

I was watching Oprah the other day and Vera Wang was debuting her new clothing line Simply Vera, only sold at Kohls. For those who dont know, Kohls is a discount department store. Anyways, the clothes are fab and I will be there this weekend to pick up some digs. Here are some stills from the show…

I was working out today and feeling great and getting in the groove. After I was on the treadmill for about 40 minutes and the elliptical for about 15 minutes, I quickly ran over to the Boot camp class to get my sculpt on. Anyways, while I was working out I was looking at the mirror a few times and I look bigger than I thought I was. It kind of discouraged me,  yet motivated me to work out harder to loose the extra poundage.

In class, I was stretching and thought I looked like this…

but when I looked in the mirror, I looked like this…

Either gym mirrors add 20 pounds or I always looked like this. Maybe I have reverse body dysmorphia where I think I look fine but I look worse.

I had hopes of getting married

Buying a home with my husband

and starting a family.

But you find that your significant other doesnt want the same thing. When you find out something like this, it’s like your heart was ripped out, stomped on, kicked on, ran over, stabbed and eaten. You wouldnt think that someone you’ve known for close to five years is not ready for marriage. Rather, not even thinking about it.

I understand I can not waste anymore time. I’m going to be 26 years old and I know what I want in life. If I’m with someone who doesnt share the same values and hopes and dreams as I do then I have to keep it moving. I refuse to be “that girl” who waits 10 years for my bf to propose. No, I refuse. I have respect for myself.

I just need to pray because I really deserve better.

After about five months, I finally got my Complaint Free World bracelet.

I’m planning on changing my career.  I still want to pursue business, however, I believe I have a greater chance in pursuing a career in LAW.  I want to be a lawyer. I’ve thought about law off and on for the past few years and many people believe I would be great at it. I love to write, read, and I like to argue. I’m sure there’s more to law than these three qualities, but I believe I mastered the basics.

Right now I am doing some research and going to prepare for the exam to get into law school. I MAY not pay for the prep class. Who knows?

Luckily for me, I know a few people in the industry so I may utilize them to get more info about law school, exams etc. Hey! I may even get into business law. That’s killing two birds with one stone.

I just recieve a post from my friend, LaSherra, on MySpace and I thought it was interesting and I wanted to post it on my blog.

This has got to be one of the cleverest E-mails I’ve received in awhile.
Someone out there either has too much spare time or is deadly at Scrabble.
Wait till you see the last one!DORMITORY:
When you rearrange the letters:
DIRTY ROOM

the old Britney would have probably stopped the show, took off her boots and started from the top and killing her set. But that obviously didnt happened.

[video]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DoiS80H4YEo[/video]

It’s funny how hard it took me to find this story. I wonder why. Anyway, this story should be nationwide news. It shouldnt go away after only one day. This is a prime example of how primitive people can still be. I pray that these six dogs are either put to sleep or locked in their cages for 20 years…times dog years.

SEPTEMBER 11–A black West Virginia woman was sexually assaulted, stabbed, and tortured while being held captive by her white abductors, one of whom told her, “That’s what we do to niggers around here.” The 23-year-old victim was freed Saturday after cops responded to the home of Frankie Brewster for a “welfare check on a female that was reportedly being held against her will.” When cops arrived, Brewster claimed she was the only one home, but then the victim limped to the door and said, “Help me.” According to six harrowing criminal complaints, the woman, who apparently had been held for more than a week, had four stab wounds in her left leg, bruised eyes, and had been repeatedly sexually assaulted and humiliated. The woman told police that she was forced to lick Brewster’s “toes, vagina, and anal cavity.” Brewster’s son Bobby forced the woman to eat dog and rat feces, according to one complaint filed in Logan County Magistrate Court. The victim, who is now hospitalized, was raped at knifepoint, choked with a cable cord, and had her hair pulled and cut during the ordeal. Police, who have arrested six defendants for their roles in the abduction and attack, are looking for other suspects who may have lured the victim to Brewster’s home. The arrestees are seen in the below mug shots. Pictured clockwise from the upper left are Frankie Brewster, 49; Bobby Brewster, 24; Danny Combs, 20; George Messer, 27; Alisha Burton, 22; and Karen Burton, 46.