GottaLovet

I dont know if I should be patient and give Facebook a chance but so far, no good. I dont like it as much as Myspace. I will wait and play around with it. Will keep you posted.

I’ve been asleep since Wednesday around 3:30 pm to Thursday 9 am. That’s the longest I’ve slept since like forever. And I’m still tired.

I am home…sick and I hope I feel better before the weekend comes. My stomach doesnt feel right and after my first break at went to the bathroom and threw up. Yes, I’m sorry for being too graphic but thats what happened.

I have off til either Tuesday or Wednesday, which is great. I hope I have a productive weekend. I pray that I get better too.

I may be planning a small trip this weekend because I dont want to be one of those saps who stay home on a three day weekend anymore. So right now I MAY be planning a trip since I have like 5 days off. So far no one wants to come with me so I may be going by myself. I have to see if my finances are in order but I may go. I need to get a way from it all. I’ll keep you posted.

I just saw Iron Man and I really liked the movie. Robert Downey Jr. looks better than I thought. And he looks really good in suits. Anyway, I’m getting off topic. I saw the movie today, alone, and there were two seats empty next to me. This guy named “George” sat next to me and I quickly noticed the tattoos on his hands.

Something told me he was part of a gang but I didnt want to prejudge him because he had tattoos on his hands. He was really nice. He offered me Starburst and asked why I was sitting by myself. Before I could answer he asked, “if I was trying to get away from everything?” And I told him, “Yeah!”.

I asked him the same question and he said he was on the work release program and he just got off work. For those who dont know, work release programs are often afforded to people who spent time in prison. It’s a way for them to get back to society and earn a living. I guess I was right that he “may” have been part of a gang but it didnt matter to me. He was very nice and respectful.

Anyways, I said all this to say that even though I had a nice guy sitting next to me, I felt very uncomfortable. It’s been a while since I sat at a theatre alone and with him next to me I couldnt do things that I would normally do with someone I was “involved” with.

Usually if I’m restless sitting in a chair, I would lean on my “man” or put my leg on “him” to get comfortable. But with “George” I couldnt do that, because I just met him. LOL! I was moving around in my seat and he kept looking at me to see if I was ok, but I tried to get comfortable.

The movie was done and I quickly left the theatre because I was far from the door and I didnt want to stand behind anyone scratching their ass.  I didnt bother to look back at “George” because I was just not ready for anymore small talk.

I drove home… alone, and went into my apt…alone and it was tough. However, I’ve come to the realization that this is something I have to deal with for now because I am less stressed now than before.

Right now IM LONELY but hopefully it wont be long. I am not too eager to meet new people yet but whatever happens, happens.

P.S. I wore the red Payless shows to the movies. See shoes below.

People! Get in the habit of keeping your windows open! Unless you live on the first floor then no, dont do it. Anyways, I was watching tv and I heard a truck outside. I didnt think much of it so I continued to watch tv. But this was different. I heard a man yelling, “Wait, wait!” I looked outside and I saw an Ashley Furniture truck man navigating the driver where to turn so he doesnt hit my car.

**Flashback** I drove my car earlier today and when I got home something told me to park away from the street, but since I had groceries I didnt want to park too far. Anyways, back to the story. I continued to look outside and the driver was able to continue on driving up the hill to deliver the furniture but something told me to go outside to see if my car was alright.

I quickly ran outside and I saw a “ding” on my car. It wasnt a dent–it was a ding. I looked at the delivery men and they were acting very suspicious. I quickly ran upstairs got my umbrella (yes it was raining hard) my pen, camera, and paper and ran back outside.

While they were delivering the sofa I took a picture of the truck and their license plate in case they were going to leave the scene. One of the delivery men (the driver) came down and I told him that I called the police, I witnessed everything and the police will be here in a minute. He said alright.

The police finally came after like 10 minutes and I told him what exactly happened. Then the police officer wanted to hear what the driver had to say and the driver said he didnt hit the car. Now there’s one thing I dont like and its liars.

I told the officer he was lying and asked him why would I pick on these men for no reason and blah blah blah. The guy kept lying saying, “Oh well there’s no black paint on her car. If I hit it there would be black paint.” The officer said it doesnt mean anything. “If you were driving about 60 mph, then maybe there would be some paint on the car, but you werent driving that fast, so there’s none.”

The more the driver talked the more he kept digging a hole for himself. He kept saying he didnt hit my car, but his partner didnt even defend him. Then the driver would speak Spanish to his partner and the police officer kept asking him to not speak Spanish and let the other guy speak for himself. And not once did the other guy have the driver’s back.

The more I pleaded my case, the more the officer believed me. Then the officer asked for our documents. When I went to the car to get my documents, I walked back and I saw the driver talking to the officer. The driver showed him a ticket he got in a neighboring town for basically committing the same crime. The officer asked him, “Why did you show me this ticket. This makes you look even more guilty.” The driver wanted the officer to cut him some slap but the officer said no. The officer said that if the driver  would have worked it out with me in the first place, he wouldnt have to come here.

Anyways, the driver finally admitted fault to the accident and the police officer filed an accident report. Now, I am afraid to call my insurance company because they may raise my rates. I rather not get the car fixed and not drive then to call and pay more for something no fault of my own. I dont know what to do. I will do my research and see what I’m going to do about this later.

I have been thinking for the past few days and decided to stop driving to work starting in June. I cant afford to pay for gas and the $43 a month parking fee. The company I worked for never charged for parking until last year when my current company bought them out. Life is costing me a fortune.

Food is becoming more expensive and gas and even parking. If I take the train (which thankfully is near my house) it will cost be about $41 a month. This way I will save money on gas and dont pay for parking. I think it should be a crime to charge employees for parking. Its utterly ri*damn*diculous!

Well I am def going to stop driving to work. I may stop before June, but we’ll see.

I was driving with my mom and aunt from the Bronx on Sunday and there were a lot of people walking in the streets because the Yankees game had just finished. While I was trying to get on the Major Deegan Expy, I saw a begger carrying a sign and it said, “I’m not going to lie, I’m not hungry–I just want a cold beer.” I was laughing. It wasnt expecting that. I felt bad that I didnt give him anything because I was so busy trying to get on the highway. But I thought that was funny.

For the past couple of days I’ve decided that I will move on with my life and keep it moving. I’m tired of the nonsense that has been going on for the past few months and having HIGH hopes that things will work out the way I plan them to be.

I wrote a few months back about what my plans were but within recent weeks these plans, I knew werent going to see the light of day.

Oh well! There’s no time to cry over very spoiled milk. I am right now living my life and will hopefully find someone who at least has their own place and have goals set for themselves. I know within the past FIVE years, I’ve done whatever I could to better my [used to be] “better-half” but obviously as of lately I havent felt like the “better-half” myself.

Well I will be taking my time but hoping to meet other people because I am getting older and I hope to have a FAMILY and HOUSE and HUSBAND of my own with someone I know who LOVES me.

Even though I’ve made mistakes and ADMITTED to these mistakes I dont regret what has happened ultimately to my relationship. Just like the exes I had in the past, you learn to date certain people and look for what you want out of a relationship and K.I.M and try not to make the same mistakes. This recent “real” relationship taught me greatly of what NOT to settle for ever again.

So I say all this to say I am looking for the RIGHT one and I am very patient in my search and even though mistakes were made, I know to never make these same mistakes AGAIN.

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ETA: I forgot to publish this post earlier today.

I want to shout out my little sister, Pamela, for successfully finishing the bike tour this past Sunday in NYC. I understand it was about a 46 mile tour and she did it all by herself. Good Job lil sis!