GottaLovet

I am tired of the foolishness that’s happening in both my professional and personal life. My boss is getting on my nerves. Why? I dont know. I do my job and I exceed my goals and I come to work everyday, before time, and she (who is a year younger than me) is taking her job too seriously. She was basically threatening me to work overtime. When did O.T. become required? I never heard of that. She then was telling me her bullshit for working O.T.  and I literally walked away.

I am not going to lose my job for someone who wants to look good for the “big boss”. She needs to focus her energy on someone else (and believe me there are a lot of people) who dont come to work on time, who havent even reached their minimum goal and/or repetively call out from work. Why am I being picked on? Is it because I look shy? Please, if they only knew.

In regards to my personal life, I am tired of being sidelined. There were a lot of things I wanted to do with my ex-mate, like going to Washington D.C and Atlantic City, but plans would be pushed back bc his mom was traveling and among other things. I dont like, nor want,  to rearrange my life for other people, especially for people who dont like me in the first place.

I have a laundry list of things I didnt like when I was in the relationship. But I learned to live with it. Dont get me wrong, I’m not a saint and I dont claim to be either. However, if I scratch your back, you have to scratch mine. I dont waste time. But I wasted time. Its a shame. But I guess after I nagged a little about something, that’s when my ex-mate would apologize and then we get back together. He was very comfortable with the relationship. As was I. I was getting used to the treatment I was getting. Due to recent events, I kind of woke up and decided I wasnt going to take it anymore.

At this time I prefer to be alone and not deal with anyone. I dont want to get flowers, other gifts or a proposal, bc its just out of pity. I want time for myself and I want my ex-mate to take time for himself to think about what he wants. I dont want to rush back into a relationship right now. I have enough stress already.

If its meant for me to get back with him then I will but I wont right now. I am not planning on seeing, or even talking to him, for no less than 3-6 months. I think that is enough time for us to think about what we want…in life.